everything happened for a reason.
Sunday, September 21, 2008 @ 11:34 PM
for all i know...
I am not yet ready to face the worse.
I am not yet ready to face the worse.
as much as i am tired now, in my mind i am worrying over lovely auntie condition.i know that i cannot do much in helping her out of the pain.lovely auntie was transferred to ICU from the normal ward just now in the morning.you have no idea how panic the family was when we received a call from one of the nurses.
lovely auntie was admitted on Wednesday.she was normal for 3 days till today when certain things just have to happen.she was fine for the first 3 days but i do not understand whyy suddenly her condition got worse.i admit that i am not strong now.i am weak because i am seeing a strong lady lying on the bed having all kinds of needles being poked in her hands and worse,she needs to drink/eat through the using of tube.whyy.whyy must it be now.
you know what.during this last few days of ramadhan and also the night of "lailatul qadar",i pray to ALLAH SWT to give my lovely auntie and family a last chance to be a happy family again.give her a chance to be strong again like what she always used to be.and lastly,i pray that ALLAH SWT will allow us be together on this coming "lebaran".i know that i might be asking for too much but we all know that "we plan but the one who decides is ALLAH SWT." honestly,whatever outcome it is we will try our best to accept it because we know ALLAH SWT loves us more than anyone do.
but.i am disappointed with myself.seriously,i was full of hope(s) when lovely auntie was in the normal ward but when i saw her just now,i have started to lose the hope(s) that i used to hold for her.i do not know why but i just feel that the hope(s) that i am holding is fading away from me..i do not want that.i really do not want.i want my lovely auntie to get well soon and out of the ICU.i want to see that sweet lovely smile on her face.the jokes that she made.the nonsensical words that she loves to say.the kiss that she always give and the care and love that she always shower us with.i want to see and hear all of that again.please.
"Ya ALLAH,sesungguhnya berikanlah kekuatan kepada makcik ku dan juga diriku.semoga kita dapat menghadapai segala dugaan yang kau limpahkan pada kami semua.Dan kuatkanlah ketabahan dan kesabaran kami pada bulan ramadhan yang penuh barakah ini kerna sabar itu separuh daripada iman kami Ya ALLAH..tolonglah aku Ya ALLAH...sesungguhnya akulah hamba mu...Amin..."
*seeing my lovely auntie just now reminds me of late grandfather.
p/s:sorry if the entry sounds draggy.i just need a "place" now.
lovely auntie was admitted on Wednesday.she was normal for 3 days till today when certain things just have to happen.she was fine for the first 3 days but i do not understand whyy suddenly her condition got worse.i admit that i am not strong now.i am weak because i am seeing a strong lady lying on the bed having all kinds of needles being poked in her hands and worse,she needs to drink/eat through the using of tube.whyy.whyy must it be now.
you know what.during this last few days of ramadhan and also the night of "lailatul qadar",i pray to ALLAH SWT to give my lovely auntie and family a last chance to be a happy family again.give her a chance to be strong again like what she always used to be.and lastly,i pray that ALLAH SWT will allow us be together on this coming "lebaran".i know that i might be asking for too much but we all know that "we plan but the one who decides is ALLAH SWT." honestly,whatever outcome it is we will try our best to accept it because we know ALLAH SWT loves us more than anyone do.
but.i am disappointed with myself.seriously,i was full of hope(s) when lovely auntie was in the normal ward but when i saw her just now,i have started to lose the hope(s) that i used to hold for her.i do not know why but i just feel that the hope(s) that i am holding is fading away from me..i do not want that.i really do not want.i want my lovely auntie to get well soon and out of the ICU.i want to see that sweet lovely smile on her face.the jokes that she made.the nonsensical words that she loves to say.the kiss that she always give and the care and love that she always shower us with.i want to see and hear all of that again.please.
"Ya ALLAH,sesungguhnya berikanlah kekuatan kepada makcik ku dan juga diriku.semoga kita dapat menghadapai segala dugaan yang kau limpahkan pada kami semua.Dan kuatkanlah ketabahan dan kesabaran kami pada bulan ramadhan yang penuh barakah ini kerna sabar itu separuh daripada iman kami Ya ALLAH..tolonglah aku Ya ALLAH...sesungguhnya akulah hamba mu...Amin..."
*seeing my lovely auntie just now reminds me of late grandfather.
p/s:sorry if the entry sounds draggy.i just need a "place" now.
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