Okay,I am trying to make some effort here to update my blog atleast once a week.Heh..and my mood is not pretty good for now and trust me at the end of this blog I am really going to say all things out from the bottom of my heart.For now,I am controlling it.

Work has been pretty alright,pretty tired.Again,I am trying to make an effort of going home between 6-7pm this coming week onwards as I need to spend more time with my grandmother who has been discharged from the hospital,3 days ago.She is not well and is on the road to recovery.As a grand-daughter,I would want to give her the best medicine that is to atleast visit her everyday after work.

Last Friday,met with Nisa to have our long awaited Soup Tulang over at Beach Road.The plan was to have Sofi with us too but Sofi had to attend to a last minute urgency,so she gave it a miss.Haiz..:(.Anyway,that night,was a night full of meat.Hahaha.I ordered Hot Plate Beef Steak and Soup Tulang.Hah.I was too full that I had to share the Beef Steak with Nisa.Heh..:).It was such a nice "catch up" moments with her.She is planning to grab Sofi and I to Johor on this coming public holiday,Labour's Day.InsyaALLAH,would be able to so long as I inform my mother in advance.Well,it is just a day trip out of Singapore.Heh..:)

Yeah,the house is getting a little bit busier this few days with the preparations going on here and there.It will get much much much more busier as the days goes by.I swear,it will.InsyaALLAH..Besides that,I am also planning for a 21st Birthday,this year and I really hope that it does not clash.:)

This coming week will be a pretty busy week.I might be on leave on Wednesday,for there is an appointment that needed to be settle on that day.On Saturday,will have an another appointment together with my sister and cousin.Haiz..sometimes I wonder why do we have so many things to do yet so little time to clear on it.Haiz.."That is life..",they said.:)

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Now,can I start throwing my tantrum??

I am extremely pissed off with certain people who simply do not know how to appreciate their LIFE!A friend of mine messaged me this morning,telling me that my friend said something about me.My friend said that I was not there for her when she needed a friend to console her,to talk too.LIKE WHAT THE "Fish"!Is she stupid or crazy?!Who was there to take the tissue for her to wipe her tears?!Who was the one who asks her if she is alright and want to talk about it and ended up I was the one who kena "FISH" by her??HAH!Chicken!Now,want to blame me for not being a good friend when she was the one who chided me..Blooody shit!It is good enough,I keep mum about it as I do not want anymore arguements.I am just praying that one day,ALLAH swt will open your eyes,and let you see which is real and which is fake.For now,I think you are blinded by the tiff that you just had with your what-so-ever ah!

One more!Another crazy friend of mine,think that she can run away from problem by doing stupid(real stupid!) stuffs.This one worst ah.Will never take in my advice.NEVER!I have tried consoling her but failed.Same thing,ended up I kena "Fish" by her.WAH!

I am also one stupid friend.Kena "Fish" already,still can bear with it.I wonder who has I inherit this patience genes from.I doubt so from my mother because she can be impatience.Dad?ummm.Unsure about that.Hah.Now,I have already make up my mind and I think it is for the best for everyone.When they call,I shall just answer them to what they want.(applicable to those 2 friends only!).I want to cut the conversation short for it will make things better.

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*Jangan memilih aku,bila engkau tak sanggup setia.

Hah!

Finally,Delis found her time in updating her blog.:).My bad,for not updating on this dusty blog of mine for 2 months.Honestly,this 2 months have been full of ups and downs.My working life has been pretty alright but it pains me when I have to actually keep on re-training new people that came to my workplace.I really hope that it will not change anymore.Just stay!haha.Well,happy news coming ahead and I shall reveal it a bit only as it is still under discussion.haha.

My daddy is in town now.:D.Worst still is,my dad scolded (not really scold lah,but he disagree) me when he saw my hair.Urgh!My soon to be brother-in-law(ahemm.:)),helped me coloured my hair a week before my dad came back to Singapore.I thought,he would not noticed it because it was not really obvious,but sadly,my dad did and he was not really happy with it.How??I can only keep quiet when he advised me not to.(How to,when I already dyed my hair??).hehe.Anyway,I did not replied him anything but just keep quiet.:).

So,my mum's birthday is tomorrow and honestly,I have not get any gift for her?Die!She will sure says this,"Umm..yelah.Birthday mama kan dah tak important..tak apalah..biar mama duduk di library..".I shall translate okay,"Umm..ya.Nevermind,my birthday is no longer important.Just let me sit in the library."Yeah!She loves to say that.I do not know why.Hahaha.Well,we shall see how things go later as there are "guest" discussing about the date for the happy day.:).

Okay,can I update more later?I think I am needed for now..Hahaha.:D.

Oh!I am a happy owner of an Itouch.:D

Now,the left side says,"You desere something more than that." While the right side says,"Hold on to it."

Whatever it is,I have to think for myself too.

We ARE in 2010!:D.Alhamdulillah,we manage to live till this year.:).Whenever it comes to new year,all of the people will be asking what is your resolutions?umm..I do not know why but some of the people do make sense by saying,"heh..you need not wait for new year to have your own resolutions..".:).Well,everyone has their own mindset and ways of making their life to the fullest and I guess I have mine too.;).Now,let's do rewind back a little on 2009.

2009 was a year full of everything.I remembered,in late January,I embark myself into working life and I am very glad that I am still working in that company with great collegues and especially employers.:).Honestly,first few months of my working life was not really a great one.Imagine,I even go to the extend of quitting but with the support of my family and matured mind of mine(heh..),I did not want to give up instead I continue..:).Later in early February,my first aunt passed away.Everyone was sad over her departure as she was the one who has the upmost patience in everything.Again,ALLAH SWT loves her more than anyone else.In April,my one and only lovable,handsome-able cousin got engaged.:D.He is the only closes cousin brother from the paternal side that we are closes with.Well..:).

Later,my following-following-following months were as per normal..Opps.Not forgetting,my involvement as the Assistant Stage Manager(ASM) for the Malay Dance Show which was to work together with Kirana Seni and our neighbouring countries malay dances.A great experience learnt.Courtesy to Kak Shireen for guiding me in everything.:D.Okay..In August,arrival of the twin nieces which is now 4 month old.:D.Their presence in the family is a bliss.Thank You ALLAH for all.:).Again..following-following-following the months were as per normal.Now,what do I meant by per normal??It simply means..tuition-work-home..the sequence repeat for a countless of times.Really tiring but again,it was all worth it.

Anyway,you might think that my life is that simple,but to look back at 2009 again,I guess it was not.It was a year where full of challenges.A big setback I received at my workplace which made me stronger now compared to last time.I shall neither look nor think about it because it is not going into my 2010.It has stopped at the moment I received my motivation and support from my employer and my collegues.Oh!Not forgetting,my 2 intership students who has already left in November.The intership students have helped me a lot.I am very glad that they are always there to support me.(definitely,inclusive of my collegues.:)).

That was what my 2009 was about.I shall say that 2009,was a year which has made me grown up to be a stronger person.I have to stand on my own,making my own decision for my own life and people around me always say this,"Stop being too nice too people.Especially the one who always take advantage of you.":).It is not that I choose to be in this way but it is IN me and I can only tone it down.:).insyaALLAH.heh...2009 was a good year too me as it has taught me a lot.:).

Now 2010 is IN here and what I want is to be happy-happy-happy and happy.(Definitely not happy always,plus some sadness too because without that what is the meaning of life??).It is just that I do not want any of the 2009 issues to repeat in 2010.Oh.I am thinking of part time study.I might be either continue with degree or switching course.I have yet to plan for that.So many things that I still need to catch.:).InsyaALLAH,I am praying that I am able too.:).

To all readers;Happy New Year.:)

Eh I am finally updating my entry in here.Hah!Working life is a never good thing,like I have always say.Well,what to do that is life..It's either you enjoy now,suffer later or suffer later,enjoy now but then again,I think it can be done is this way too,suffer and enjoy at the same time.Umm..maybe.It depends on every individual.

Honestly,life has been pretty hard on me this days.Too many things to think about and to take care of.Sometimes I do wonder on why do I have to take care of the feelings of the people around me..Not complaining but wondering..

Whatever it is,that is life..